In the middle of a dream, I hear the sound of peaceful music. After about 10 seconds, I realize it’s my alarm 5 feet away, on the dresser. I placed my phone there the night before so I’m forced out of bed to turn off the alarm. I manage to stop the alarm and stumble to the kitchen to turn on the Keurig coffee maker. I get my favorite “It’s F*cking Science” coffee mug and start making my cup of joe. I find my journal and pen, sit on the floor between the couch and coffee table, and open up the journal to the next blank page. Still experiencing sleep inertia, I take a sip of my coffee and figure out the date. The first thought that enters my mind ends up on the page. I continue writing until I finish 3 pages. I close the journal and continue sipping on my coffee. Let the day begin!
This morning writing routine has become one of the most enjoyable parts of my life. When I started, I had no idea how transformative it would be. It’s an understatement to say that this writing activity has impacted my life.
About 9 months ago, I decided that I would like to write a book one day. I didn’t deny that this was going to be a long road, but I was ready to take the first step. The obvious first step was to start writing. I came across an activity called the “Morning Pages” devised by Julia Cameron, author of The Artist’s Way. The Morning Pages activity takes about 25 minutes of your day. The directions are as followed: Write 3 pages every morning. Don’t worry about grammar or spelling, just write. Write about anything that’s on your mind! If you don’t have anything on your mind, write about that.
MEDITATION
After the first few weeks, I noticed I entered a meditative state after the first page of writing. I was in a state of flow. It was so peaceful. Writing is a meditative practice. The morning pages drain your brain of thoughts that would otherwise be there lingering throughout your day. Meditation is well-known for the ability to quiet the mind, but like yoga, writing is different. You aren’t sitting still getting pissed because you keep thinking about your to-do list.
GROWTH
Recently, I flipped back to read a random page in my journal. It was funny but I thought to myself, “how could I have grown so much in a matter of months?” Writing is a motivational reminder of who you want to be and how each small step makes a difference. Sometimes the morning pages can be for problem-solving. Sometimes it can heal hurt emotions. Sometimes you just write about your dreams. It is so simple, yet powerful.
SELF-RESPECT
To authentically respect yourself, you have to know yourself. Writing shows you who you are. You can decide who you want to be and what you’ll need to do to get there. Self-love and acceptance are not easy, especially for a recovering perfectionist. To watch yourself grow is special.
MANAGING ANXIETY
Sometimes, I’ll write in the evening, after work. I still experience the benefits – occasionally, even more so since I’m usually more anxious after a work-day. It puts the anxiety to rest by helping me work through it. Unfortunately, it’s much easier to numb unwanted feelings/moods by watching TV or scrolling through Facebook or Instagram. Writing helps you work through the mood. Why are you feeling anxious? Why are you sad? Is there anything that is in your control? Write about it – I promise, over time, the anxiety will diminish.
I know one day I’ll start writing my book. But for now, I’ll keep writing my morning pages and hopefully make a monthly visit on here.
